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Is this what hell feels like? I think I'm there...

I feel like the worst girlfriend ever

I feel like the worst person ever

I " don't care " about anyone but me

I wish i could take back time

okay, for starters... noone truly knows what is wrong with me... why I do certain things... so they think I just overreact and nothing is actually wrong

and then somethign else happens to another person.... and I feel so shit for them.. but I don't show it

I don't show sympathy for people

but I know I feel it

Do you ever wish you could change who you are,

chang how you act

change how you make others feel

?

It's stupid... I used to feel alot of things, like i would cry openly. now? now everything is just... emotionless so to speak.

e.g i was crying cos of something and for about a minute i was in hysterics and i stopped completly and thoguth about how i didn't even feel sad...

I don't know if that is good or not .... but I can't help it :S

but i guess the whole 'goign away for 2 months' thing is coming at a good time

I need to get out of here and clear my head for a while

i know my life doesnt seem "shit" but ... I'm allowed to feel sorry for myself even if it isn't always... right?